shutter speed is rapid
tired eyes are hard to control
apature widens
on this camera to the world
nested on a tripod
of little appreciation

blaming my moods
on my being a girl
crabby and tired
over analytical
directionless
what the hell are these tears doing here?
how am i so happy?
how am i crying?

not allowed to be tired yet
i still have to add ten hours into my schedule
more time to supervise
less time so socialize
but already i
can't even give my baby my all
the way he loves me
brings me to tears
more tears
but from a different recipe

Balance, help.